Welp 🤷🏻‍♀️ the verdict came in. Large herniated disk bulging out onto the sciatic nerve creating immense pressure and pain in lower back and right leg. This explains my inability to sit, walk renderring me bedridden. Surgery for my back is being scheduled as we speak.

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As I see it. I can allow this to break me. Make me feel less than. Saddened by what I am missing and all I can’t do.

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Freshen up my eyebrows and add a little makeup with a smile despite the discomfort and inconveniences that come with this. I can be thankful I wake up each day. And that I still feel pain which means I am living. Thankful for friends and family that care about me and love on me. I can stand firm in my faith even when pain is unbearable because I know MY GOD won’t leave me nor forsake me. Nor give me more than I can handle. I can be grateful He gives me strength in my weakest moments.

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I choose freshened up and grateful. Why?! Because isn’t it clear. There is far more to be thankful for than there is to complain about. Shouldn’t we all see life with a half full glass and know it is always refillable.

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One thing I have been reminded of over these days layed up in bed, is that despite how bad things may appear, despite the medical reports, life is something we should ALWAYS be thankful for. We can all fall short at some point when our emotions take over. So what if it doesn’t go as you hoped for, as you planned, God won’t disappoint. I can assure you of this. Remaining with an attitude of thankfulness helps keep our mind and hearts focused on the positive. I am choosing positive and I hope you will too. ❤️

XOXO…Ileen

psst…God Loves You